and the story's begin . .

DIFF

2010-09-22T03:48:00.015+07:00

When the other girls says "Please, be a 'carefull' guy, that always ask 'Honey, you've eaten?' or 'Honey, what are you doin'?'" I'd rather to say "Please, don't be like that, don't care-obvius-captious too much, I like when you ignore me a little and care of me a little too."

When the other girls says "I want you always 'here' for me 24/7!" I'd rather to say "Oh geez! I have my 'ME' time baby, you don't have to always beside me all day long."

When the other girls says "I don't like all your friend's, they 'kidnap' you from me, get away from them so I can have you all day!" I'd rather to say "Go get you boys, baby and don't forget to introduce they to me. Take care."

When the other girls says "I love your joke, dear! You can gave me those joke everyday, I never get bored." I'd rather to say "Honey, I love your joke, but don't gave me those joke e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y, I get bored easily, so be creative."

When the other girls says "No, I don't had a 'boy' friend(s), I had my girl(s)! So, you not gonna jealousssyy on them, aight?" I'd rather to say "Yes, I do. I have my 'boy' friend(s), even I had some girl(s), but boys know better when I started to telling our story. So please, keep your 'jealousy' baby."

When the other girls says "Honey, I want to go a diet! All day I want to eat bla bla bla . . ." butin their heart, they say "Come on, don't make me do this diet, I'm gonna die! Just stop me and say 'I'm pretty'" I'd rather to say "Baby, I want to go a diet! I just eat bla bla bla . . "my heart also say "I really really need this! Don't you ever stop me, I never change my mind!"

When the other girls says "No, no, no, no, NO! I don't like." I'd rather to say "Of course, go for it." Sometimes, in my heart I pretend "No, please don't, please." Yeah, I know it called 'lie' but I sayin that for your own good, even I don't like it. 'Cause sometimes I can't gave the best for you, so maybe it's the best for you."

When the other girls say "I just like the other girls, I like red folwers, cutey dolls, romantic dinner, bla bla bla . . ." I'd rather say "No, I am different, you can gave me your old stuff, even a lame thing, perhaps it's really meansfull for you, so don't compare me with the other."

When the other girls say "I need a guy who could manage me, ban me, and advised me everyday." I'd rather say "Honey, you could a little manage me, ban me, and advised me perhaps it's all for me or our good, but not everyday, please. I have a 'rebellious' thing that I didn't really want it."

When the other girls say "Hey! Where'd you go?? I'm crying because of you! I'm in a fvcking badmood! Can you try to make me feel better?????" but in reality it's their fault not him, I'd rather say "I'm in a fvcking badmood, it's all because of you, so don't judge me, don't be lame." But then in a few minutes or hour, I'll be better and said "Sorry, I realize it's my fault, let's fix this problem. :')"

I'm a little bit sellfish, I'm a little bit grumpy, and I'm a little bit 'uncare', and also maybe too much demand.

Yes, I'm different. I'm not that simple.

BUT, if you can changed me into a that 'the other girls', with your own creative way, I must be freaking insane in l-o-v-e with you, and I'll never-never-ever let you go.

. . .

And now I'm realize baby, who care's with those stupid writing I've wrote? I have you now, you're mine and always be mine. You made me feel something diff and you can (and already) changed me, I must be insane now, and I'll never-never-ever let you go.

You just too sweet to be mine, but too love to be lost, R.

pada dasarnya . . .

2010-09-17T15:42:00.008+07:00

pada dasarnya setiap orang selalu ingin membahagiakan orang lain apalgi orang-orang yang disayanginya. setiap orang memiliki kesungguhan dan memiliki caranya sendiri untuk menunjukkan bahwa dia sangat sangat sangatt menyayangi kekasihnya.

saat wanita mengatakan "aku capek.aku udah gak bisa lagi" tidak berarti bahwa dia sebenenarnya menyerah atas semua keadaan yang ada. dia hanya membutuhkan waktu untuk berpikir bagaimana menyelesaikan semua persoalan. dan ingin mencoba segala sesuatunya dari awal lagi.

saat wanita menangis, itu bukanlah air mata yang disengaja agar kalian mengalah dan menyelesaikan semua persoalan. sama sekali bukan! kami menangis karena kami sedih, sakit dan ada sesak yang mengumpat. kami sedih karena pria yang menjadi sandaran kami berbuat hal yang tidak kami kehendaki. kami kecewa kenapa kalian bisa berbuat hal seperti itu.

saat wanita memuja lelaki lain seperti artis korea ataupun orang lain yang berparas tampan didepan kalian, bukan maksud kami untuk membandingkan kalian atau itu berarti kami lebih menganggap kalian tidak ada apa-apanya. kalian adalah makhluk yang paling sempurna yang pernah ada. kami bahkan tidak bisa melihat adanya cacat dalam diri kalian. kami memilih kalian bukan hanya karena alasan kalian tampan atau memiliki badan yang bagus. kami memilih kalian karena kami merasakan bahwa ada malaikat yang menjaga kami, menangkap kami saat kami akan terjatuh, memberikan pelukan kepada kami, memberikan pundaknya yang hangat saat kami harus menangis untuk kesekian kalinya, akan senantiasa mendengar cerita kami baik itu kabar baik ataupun buruk, senantiasa menerima kami dan siap memberikan pujian saat kami bangga atas prestasi yang kami lakukan, dan senantiasa mendukung kami bila melakukan hal yang sangat kami suka.

saat wanita harus sibuk dengan pekerjaannya, bukan berarti dia ingin meninggalkan kalian dan tidak ingin menghabiskan waktu untuk kalian. ataupun kami ingin menyaingi kalian sehingga suatu saat nanti kami akan menelantarkan kalian.sama sekali BUKAN! kami hanya ingin membuat kalian bangga,kami ingin suatu saat nanti kalian mengatakan "hey, itu pacar saya.saya sangat bangga dengannya!" kami ingin menunjukkan sedikit yang kami bisa dan kami tidak akan meninggalkan kalian karena kalian adalah prioritas utama kami. kalianlah jantung dari segala apapun yang kami lakukan. tanpa kalian apapun yang kami lakukan pada dasarnya adalah hampa.

saat wanita mengatakan "tolong temenin aku hari ini.aku mau bareng sama kamu" itu berarti dia sangat membutuhkan kalian. ada sesuatu hal yang tidak bisa kami katakan, tetapi dengan adanya kehadiran kalian kami merasa kami jauh lebih baik dari keadaan sebelumnya. kami merasa bahwa beban yang menimpa pundak kami hilang seketika.

saat wanita mengangguk atas semua keinginan kalian, sebenarnya tidak semua hal yang kami setujui berkenan di hati kami. kami hanya ingin mendukung kalian. mungkin kami sudah bertindak yang tidak jujur tetapi kami hanya ingin membuat kalian tersenyum dengan cara mendukung apa yang kalian inginkan. sekuat tenaga kami merelakan keinginan kami yang sebenarnya asalkan kalian bahagia dan siap tersenyum lagi untuk kami.

saat wanita marah bila kalian dekat dengan wanita lain walaupun dia sudah mempunyai pacar, bukan maksud kami untuk menjadi posesif. sama sekali tidak. kami hanya takut harus kehilangan kalian karena kalian lebih menyayangi orang lain, kami tidak ingin kalian meninggalkan kami begitu saja hanya karena kami tidak peka dengan keadaan disekitar kalian. rasa cemburu ini bukan karena kami tidak sayang, kami cemburu karena kami sangat menyayangi kalian dan kami tidak akan pernah siap bila suatu hari nanti kalian harus pergi dan mungkin tidak akan kembali lagi kepada kami.

saat wanita marah bila anda berbohong, jujur hal ini adalah yang paling menyakitkan. sangat susah bila harus menganggap tidak terjadi apa-apa ketika mengetahui anda telah mengatakan yang tidak jujur kepada kami. SAKIT! hanya itu yang bisa kami ungkapkan.

saat wanita mengatakan "sayang,aku genduttan ya?" , "beb aku gendut banget nih" bukan maksud kami untuk menjadi rese atau apapun. kami hanya ingin tampil cantik untuk kalian, bila kalian mengatakan kami baik-baik saja didepan kalian tetapi kami terlihat buruk di mata pria lain kami sama sekali tidak menggubrisnya. kami adalah milik kalian dan kami hanya ingin terlihat baik di depan kalian.

saat wanita mendengar "kamu tuh cuma bisa nyusahin!" "ngertiin aku dikit kenapa sih?" "kamu ngelunjak ya gabisa ngehargain aku banget?!" yang kami rasakan hanyalah sakit yang mendalam. kami tidak bermaksud untuk menganggu ataupun membuat hidup kalian terbeban dengan sikap kami. apa yang kami lakukan tidak pernah ingin membuat kalian merasa terbebani. kami-pun melakukan apa yang kami bisa untuk berusaha selalu memberikan apapun yang kalian minta dengan tulus dan senang hati.

saat wanita menerima kata-kata kasar dari kalian, hal pertama yang kami pikirkan adalah "siapa dia?aku tidak mengenal kamu. kamu yang aku kenal bukan seperti ini yang bersikap kasar" kami berpikir kami dianggap apa saat emosi menyelimuti hati kalian. dan setiap kata-kata yang kalian lontarkan akan selalu terngiang di otak kami dan tak akan pernah kami lupakan. kata-kata kalian bagaikan paku yang akan meninggalkan bekas setiap paku tersebut dihentakkan.

hey para pria, kalianlah malaikat yang menjaga kami yang ringkih. kalian hal yang paling manis yang pernah kami lihat dan kami temui

bila suatu saat kita harus berpisah secara baik-baik ataupun tidak, percayalah saat kami melakukan hal yang tidak baik terhadap kalian kami hanya tidak menyangka bahwa kalian melakukan hal tersebut kepada kami. tetapi coba kalian bertanya pada hati kecil kami apakah kami sepenuhnya membenci kalian, jawabnnya tidak. tidak pernah terbesit di pikiran kami untuk membenci orang yang kami cintai. tidak pernah ada niat untuk menyakiti makhluk yang menjaga kami. semua kami lakukan hanya karena luapan emosi dan bentuk kekecewaan kami.

kami hanya ingin kalian mengerti bahwa kami pihak wanita juga selalu belajar mengerti apa yang kalian inginkan walaupun itu bertentangan dengan hati dan kehendak kami. tetapi bila kalian sudah bertindak yang sangat berlebihan, jangan pernah berpikir bahwa kami tidak akan pernah berani untuk meninggalkan kalian.

setiap orang ingin dicintai, sama seperti kami juga ingin dicintai dan diperlakukan baik oleh pria-nya.

terima kasih.

RE-BLOG from :

Stella Marcella

mysm

2010-09-16T21:29:00.002+07:00

"I feel so untouched and I want you so much

That I just can't resist you, it's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now, need you so much
Somehow I can't forget you, I've gone crazy from the moment I met you" Untouched - The Veronicas

"'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here" Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

"Say your faith is shaken, you may be mistaken

You keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun
I'm desperate and confused so far away from you
I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to go" Misery - Maroon 5

"Oh written in the stars, a million miles away, a message to the main

Seasons come and go, but I will never change
And I’m on my way" Written In The Stars - Tinie Tempah feat. Eric Turner

"My heart is achin and i've never felt this bad

I pinch myself to check that all of this is real
Keep thinkin i'm not lettin on I feel this sad
Then you've got the cheek to ask me how I feel" Absolutely Nothing - Lily Allen

"Oh and baby you left and sailed away alone (Yeah, alone)

And now you got me trapped up on this island
With no way to get home" Solo - Iyaz

"Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay" Thinking Of You - Katy Perry

"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's alright because I like the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry but that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie" Love The Way You Lie - Eminem feat. Rihanna

Love

2010-09-16T17:06:00.004+07:00

BliegyBee, long time no talk, how areyou? ;p

Ohkay, am totally don't know what would I write, it's like am a diff person now for you, aight? Hahaha Okay get rid of it! Let see, after this longlonglong time I haven't writing, what's happening? Like nothing, huh? Okay am totally confused now, even w/ my own writing! Geez!

Hearts-scream, pulse-scream, even my mind

-is-screaming!

I want to wrote something that inside my heart, but I can't. Okay why? I don't know, I don't get it. Shit. Is like so fucking hard to describe (ok you think am insane, aight?) Oh man, it's like am only take you walking into a circle. Blah!

Oh-kay! (keep trying) First, what do you want to know about me? Maybe my college? 'Cause I haven't wrote it for you :p But blah! Am too lazy for that, you know what? When I started to thinking about that, the same time! Am started thinking about my homework! Blah!

So, can we go to the next question? Hahaha :p Umh, next question is? How about my BoyF! Whoops! Sorry BliegyBee, did I told you before? I have one! -yeah finally :3 Ouch, haven't? Ops, my bad Bee! Ohkay, maybe wa can talk about him, eh? :p

Let see, His name is? Bartolomeus Ronald Tham. He's live at Singapore, he just work there and he is NOT Singaporean! And it wont be! Haaha. He's 6years older than me, whoa! Old man, huh? :p I supposed to call him Ronald, but I think it's too good for him, so we (of course, we! you can call him this too! :p) called him, 'Bocah' hahahaha :3 -Ooopsy, honey! :*

Umhhh, where do I know him? Good question! Hahha the aswer is, no where haha. Firstly, my coaches introduced him to me, because? My coaches

says, that he was too upset about him Ex- and he wants to started an new life, I guess? Hahaha So, me and him just reconcilable on MSN (simple chat :3) Then, we kept keep in touch each other until he decided to see me here (yeah! in Jakarta!) On September 10, 2010, 1.30 AM he finally arrived in Jakarta, Indonesia and woohooo! Am gonna meet him! :3

And so the journey has began, on September 10, 2010, I felt my heart again, the one that after 3years in a row (yea, you absolutely know why!) never replaced but now is replaced! Hahaha. I just love him the way he is, and finally sure and finally trying, will love him as long as I always do, and I will do! :)

So BliegyBee, am told you now! And I'll be back on my next story for you (it would be my college, I swear!) Now I must reply my boyf chat, 'cause is almost a hals minutes am not reply it! Hahaha. See y' BBee!

XOXO

Are You Ready For ANTM?

2010-09-09T12:19:00.004+07:00

Meet The Cast Of Cycle 15!

It’s finally here! Cycle 15 of America’s Next Top Model premieres on September 8th at 8pm on the CW. For Cycle 15, ANTM has gotten a high fashion ty-over! Notable guest judges include:

• Diane Von Furstenberg (designer)
• Patricia Field (designer & stylist)
• Matthew Rolston (beauty photographer)
• Karolina Kurkova (supermodel)
• Patrick Demarchelier (photographer)
• Francesco Carrozzini (photographer)
• Zac Posen (designer)
• Margherita Missoni (designer & model)
• Franca Sozzani (Vogue Italia Editor-in-Chief)

Nigel Barker, Jay Manuel and Miss J are all back and fashion world legend André Leon Talley returns as a judge.

The winner of Cycle 15 will receive a career-launching package, including a contract with IMG Models and a fashion spread in Vogue Italia!

Get to know the girls (checkout the slideshow!) and cast your vote for your fave Top Model!

Sara / Age: 21 / Hometown: Menifee, California

Kendal / Age: 23 / Hometown: Northport, Alabama

Rhianna / Age: 20 / Hometown: San Diego, Californi

Anamaria / Age: 19 / Hometown: Queens, New York

Esther / Age: 18 / Hometown: Boston, Massachusetts

Lexie / Age: 18 / Hometown: Geneva, Illinois

Chelsey / Age: 22 / Hometown: Boise, Idaho

Kayla / Age: 19 / Hometown: Rockford, Illinois

Jane / Age: 19 / Hometown: Baltimore, Maryland

Liz / Age: 21 / Hometown: Arlington, Texas

Terra / Age: 24 / Hometown: Arlington, Texas

Ann / Age: 19 / Hometown: Dallas, Texas

Kacey / Age: 20 / Hometown: Palmdale, California

Chris / Age: 20 / Hometown: Arlington, Texas

Model Dont's (and a Do)

2010-06-01T18:25:00.002+07:00

1. Do not be a "no-neck monster." Try to elongate your neck for maximum extension.

2. Do not pose like a hoochie. (If you don’t what a hoochie is, er, that's probably best.)

3. Do not be a limp noodle. Always pose with tension in your body completely from H2T (head to toe).

4. Do not play it safe and stay in the same pose. Mix it up with innovative poses, your wildest pose could be the one that’s picked.

5. Do not show up to a photo shoot unless you are clean shaven, have a clean face and clean hair.

6. Do not let hating how your hair or makeup is done affect your performance. Model through it.

7. Do not stare aimlessly when posing. Create intensity for the camera through your eyes. Smize (smile with your eyes)!

8. Do not slouch on the runway; pretend you have a wire through your spine that is pulling you up to the ceiling.

9. Do not be forgettable. Make an impression by showing your distinctive personality.

10. Do request to have your favorite music playing when you do a shoot! The beat will kick your poses up ten notches!

Keep that on your mind, girls!

www.tyra.com ♥

Prom Night

2010-05-13T16:14:00.023+07:00

"High School Musical, Who Says We Have To Let It Go? It's The Best Part We've Ever Known, Step Into The Future! We'll Hold On to."
- OST. High School Musical 3

Geez! It's already Prom Night, and I still don't believe it! (Well, am still feel like a SeniorHighSchoolStudent- but hey, I am!) Hahaha.

So, what is like? Huge, great, and awsome! We have some quality time together for the last time! (Well, not fully.) But it's the time that we were belong together, happy together, laugh together, and crying together also. Geez! I'm gonna miss my High School!

Glamorous! Hollywood!

My Prom Night, is HOLLYWOOD and MOVIE WORLD. There's Red Carpet, Paparazzi, Photoshoot, many picture's of Box Office Movie, and many-much-much-more! It make us like a superstar for a night! :D

The Entrance!

On Red Carpet : Moulee, Friesya, Me.

The Invitations, the souvenir, and the redcarpet, it making Hollywood completed!

Cool, huh?

We got a photo to take home!

What I wear? Im wearing some whity-white BodyAndSoul's Dresses. Mann! I'm begging my mommy so hard to buy this dress! Phew!

It's like am trying to be Athena, huh?

The HeadBand, SilverShoes, and PolkaClutch

And . . . Click! Click! Click! Captures! Captures! Chesse!!!!!!

The Greatest Photo on that Night!

Heart You All, Maionaisse! ♥

It's a short Night, but it's a long Memories! :)

♥

2010-05-07T22:23:00.002+07:00

" Don't ever try to say YES if you're not on that YES, but pretend to say NO cause you're just on that NO." - Cecille Putri

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2010-05-07T19:43:00.023+07:00

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Blah, Blah, Blah!

2010-04-27T17:15:00.002+07:00

by : Kesha featuring 3OH3!

Coming out your mouth with your blah, blah, blah
Zip your lips like a padlock and meet me at the back
With the jack and the jukebox

I don't really care where you live at
Just turn around, boy, let me hit that
Don't be a little bitch with your chit chat
Just show me where your dick's at

Music starts, listen hot stuff
I'm in love with this song
So just hush, baby, shut up
Heard enough

Stop, talk, talk, talking that blah, blah, blah
Think you'll be getting this nah, nah, nah
Not in the back of my car, ah, ah
If you keep talking that blah, blah, blah, blah, blah

Boy, come on give me rock stuff
Come put a little love it my glove bag
I wanna dance with no pants on
Meet me in the back with the jack and the jukebox

So cut to the chase kid
'Cause I know you don't care what my middle name is
I wanna be naked but you're wasted

Music's up, listen hot stuff
I'm in love with this song
So just hush, baby, shut up
Heard enough

Stop talk, talk, talking that blah, blah, blah
Think you'll be getting this nah, nah, nah
Not in the back of my car, ah, ah
If you keep talking that blah, blah, blah, blah, blah

You be delaying, you're always saying some shit
You say I'm playing, I'm never laying the dick
Saying blah, blah, blah
'Cause I don't care who you are in this party
It only matters who I am

Stop talk, talk, talking that blah, blah, blah
Think you'll be getting this nah, nah, nah
Not in the back of my car, ah, ah
If you keep talking that blah, blah, blah, blah, blah

Blah, blah, blah
Think you'll be getting this nah, nah, nah
Not in the back of my car, ah, ah
If you keep talking that blah, blah, blah, blah, blah

Blah, blah, blah
Stop talking
Stop talk, talk talking that

For me or for you?

2010-04-27T16:52:00.004+07:00

. . .

It's too simple, it's too flat and it's kinda boring. Your game is kinda lame and I don't like it. Is not that beautifull that I though. Firstly is began with some smile and little 'funny' jokes, but in the long run is making me down, down, down and keep saying "What's the matter with you?" , "Oh Geez, can you stop talkin' about that?" , "Oh surely, is freakin my head!".

I need some air, I need some Adult things, we're not kid anymore, so Stop being that childish!

Then, grow up please! I'm begging!

Graduated ♥

2010-04-26T21:09:00.005+07:00

Hello My Dear,

I'm back to you and I bought you some GREAT NEWS, and see . . . THANK GOD, I GRADUATED! (from High School of course) and I'm very relieved now!

ST. James, 6 years on Elementary, 3 years on Junior, and now 3 years on Senior, it's time to go, grow, and leave it! Oh man, unbelievable!

And now, say HELLO to Susan Budiardjo Fashion Design Course, hopefully! I can do my best in that adorable course!

Goodbye my Beloved High School, St. James Senior High School, I'm gonna miss you! Oh Geez! IMYA!

But hey, I dont have to say GOODBYE, it's to early! I still have my Prom and another! I can't wait!

TTYL, BliegyBee. ♥

ANTM ♥

2010-04-16T23:00:00.008+07:00

" I never went to a modeling school, but I do have a modeling soul in me. " -Cecille Putri

America's Next Top Model ♥

What is it? Ouch, you all know. Who doesn't know it? Tyra Banks, Top Model, Runway, Fashion, Photography, 'Wanna Be On Top' thing, and America's Nex Top Model certainly . . . Seriously, is a great damn show ever.

Tyra Banks, she's collecting about 14 petite model, teaching provide of runway and photography thing, then pick one of those girls to hope becoming America's Next Top Model. She's creaing this show since the day I atractive to a modeling thing. And now she's already have 14 Cycle of her show (but I don't watch it since Cycle 1! Crap!) . And, her model's were so gorgeous, marvelous, and interesting inside or the outside.

Finishing that Cycle 13, now am watching Cycle 14, the girls look great and I wonder who'll be The 14th of Tyra Banks's America's Next Top Model. ♥

Love,
Czle ♥

BliegyBee

2010-04-14T12:57:00.003+07:00

Helloo my HoneyBliegyBee ♥

Yea it's me again, your writer, owner, and also your biggest soul! Long time no wrote here. I miss you! Honestly!

It's been a month, that I leaving you, so sorry! But hey! I back again, cause now, am FREE!
Woohooooo! National Exam, School Exam, Practice Exam (and more) is ended! Gonna miss my High School! REALLY! ♥

So? What's that I miss? Hmm, I think this 'Blog' thing is not famous again, I think Tumblr is more famous now, am I right? Okay, not important! Hahahahaha.

And, now I'm in love again (and always do) w/ Tyra Banks and her 'American Next Top Model' things! Am watch it now, and I'll review it later for you BliegyBee! SMOOCHOS :*

Jason Derulo ♥

2010-03-02T11:52:00.005+07:00

Okay, Who is he?

Jason Derülo (born Jason Desrouleaux; September 21, 1989) is an American singer, songwriter, actor and dancer.

After producing records for several artists and writing songs for Cash Money Records, co-founder of the label Birdman, Young Money Entertainment owner Lil Wayne and rapper Diddy, Derülo signed to minor recording label Beluga Heights. After Beluga Heights became part of the Warner Music Group, Derülo released his debut single, "Whatcha Say" in May 2009. The song became a huge digital hit, selling over 2 million digital downloads, gaining an RIAA certification of 2x platinum, and reaching #1 in the US and several other countries. Derülo released his second single, "In My Head", in December 2009. His debut album, Jason Derülo, is due for release on March 2, 2010.

And here's some of his stuff ♥

If-We-Ever-Meet-Again

2010-02-25T11:01:00.009+07:00

If We Ever Meet Again
Katy Perry feat. Timbaland

What is somebody like you doin' in a place like this?
Say did you come alone or did you bring all your friends?
Say whats your name? What you drinking?
I think I know what are you thinking
Baby whats your sign,
tell me yours and ill tell you mine
Say What is someone like you doin' in a place like this?

I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again
Won't let you get away
If we ever meet again
This freefall's got me me so
kiss me all night,
don't ever let me go
Ill never be the same
If we ever meet again

Do you come here much?
I swear I've seen your face before
You don't see me blush
but I cant help to want you more more
Baby tel me whats youre story?
I ain't shy, don't you worry
I'm flirting with my eyes
I wanna leave with you tonight
do you come here much?
I've gotta see your face some more
(some more Cause baby I)

I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again
Won't let you get away
If we ever meet again
This free fall's got me me so
kiss me all night,
don't ever let me go
Ill never be the same
If we ever meet again

If we ever meet again,
I'll have so much more to say
(Say if we ever meet again)
If we ever meet again, again
I wont let you go away
(Say if we ever meet again)
If we ever, ever meet again
I'll have so much more to say
(Say if we ever meet again)
If we ever, ever meet again
I wont let you go away!

I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again
Won't let you get away
If we ever meet again
This free fall's got me me so
kiss me all night,
don't ever let me go
Ill never be the same
If we ever meet again

I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again
Won't let you get away
This free fall's got me me so
kiss me all night,
don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again


♥


Love this songs so much. I'll never be the same IF we ever meet again :p

My Promises : )

2010-02-19T19:32:00.004+07:00

Okay, Hey Blieggy! Belong to my promises to you yesterday, now I gotta writing something for you! Let see, what should I wrote now?

Ouch hey Bliegy, maybe about my love life now, cause it's been a long time ago-go-go-go-go-go that I've not touch that l-o-v-e words, didn't I? Hahahaha

So, Tommorow it's February 20, 2010. That's mean, I've been a-l-o-n-e for 8 months, Geez! I can't believe it, cause it's so . . Oh damn, such a long-time !

I have never been in this position for so long. And now, I feel it. Like its cross my wrist and touch me slowly. I feel so alone and don't have anybody in this little world. I walk by mw own legs and hug my own arms. And it's hurt, really hurt.

I want my l-o-v-e story like a fairytale, that I can write, I can cluster, even I could change it! Ouch, yaaa let see, as the name, f-a-i-r-y-t-a-l-e just a fairytale. It's only in the fantasy world, not in the real world where we are. So, I can only hope for the Best and hopefully meet someone that reallyreally love me (of couse I do love too!) and we have an everlasting love : )

late night, sorry!

2010-02-19T00:00:00.002+07:00

Oh My blieggy Blieggy Blieggy, Im so sorry! Before, I said I want to Poting-Marathon, but I think I can't, cause it's late late late night! So. I promise tommorow Im gonna write something! Now, I gotta go. Miss you much, Bliegy! SMOOCHHHHH ♥

MISS DO DAMN MUCH

2010-02-18T22:11:00.035+07:00

Hey My Blieggy! I miss you A LOT ! It's been a long time a go since my prevoius writing. It's make me missing something. And it's YOU! HEART you, Bliegy ♥

So? What should I wrote now? Hmm, let see. I want some BlogsPost-Marathon today! Can I? Of course, I can! Lol. Idk Y, I miss you a lot, and it's maked me feel stupid cause I don't know what I should spill now on you, Bliegy.

Oke, F-i-r-s-t posting, today :

I want share to you, Bliegy, My MOVIES HIT-LIST that I want (of cousre is a must!) to watch!
So, here is it :

1. Percy Jackson -Now on Cinemas!

2. Shutter Island -Now at Cinemas!

3. Alice in Wonderland -Coming Soon at March 5, 2010!

4. Toy Story 3 -Coming Soon at June 18, 2010!

5. Shrek Forever After (Shrek 4) -Coming Soon May 2010!

6. Remember Me -Now on Cinemas!

7. Iron Man 2 -Coming Soon!

8. The Crazies -Coming Soon!

9. Valentine's Day -Now on Cinemas!

10. The Wolfman - Now on Cinemas!

11. The Twilight Saga : Eclipse -Coming Soon!

12. Prince of Percia : The Sands Time -Coming Soon!

13. Date Night -Coming Soon!

14. The Tooth Fairy -Now on Cinemas!

15. From Paris With Love -Now on Cinemas!

16. When In Rome -Now on Cinemas!

17. Sherlock Holmes -Now on Cinemas!

18. The Lovely Bones -Coming Soon!

19. It's Complicated -Now on Cinemas!

20. Mr. Nobody -Now on Cinemas!

21. Letters to Juliet

22. Serious Moonlight -Comnig Soon!

23. Youth in Revolt -Now on Cinemas!

24. The Bounty Hounter -Coming Soon March 2010!

So thta's it . Oh! Geez! I must and must and must see ! Enjoy!

Grafity is My Second Home ♥

2010-01-22T23:05:00.022+07:00

From Little G to GRAFITY ♥

Dan semuanya berlalu begitu cepat! Setelah setaon pertama secara gak tauk kenapa, waktu naik ke kelas 2 SMA, gua pengen banget ikut ekskul Cheers. And finally, Im IN.

Dua taon udah berlalu (bener-bener gak berasa dan gua gak pengen secepet ini!) ,gua laluin bareng Grafity (My Cheerleaders Team, GeneRAtion From saInT Yakobus). Dan gua sangat-amat-teramat menikmati semuanya yang ada di dalem sana. Dari awal masuk, ketemu 3 pelatih yang sangat bisa gua banggain (ci Wendy Zelda Helling, ko Ronalt Soeharto, dan ko Raynald Soeharto -Mann! They're MORE than just a coach!) ,ketemu para senior, belajar pemanasan, bersahabat dengan penghuni lt. 2 (matras oncom, boombox yg butuh kasih sayang, kantin lt. 2, tembok-tembok, lantai marmer, jendela gedung, sampe si Om Yacko si patung sekolah) ,belajar Hand-Stand, belajar Thumbling, belajar Jumps, belajar Tehknik Cheers yang bener, belajar Dance, belajar banyak kekeluargaan, and especially Attitude!

Satu taon pertama gua laluin dengan beraneka macem latian FISIK, entah itu naek-turun-tangga 20x, Push-Up HandStand 20paket (1paket=10x!), tutupbotol, lompat-lompat, POTONG AYAM! (and FYI, karena 'potong ayam' ini gua gak bisa ke sekolah karena paha gua bengkak serta-merta biru dan gak bisa pake celana!) ,FishNet, dan gak lupa SERI dari ci We. Yang 1seri nya itu sama dengan 10x, dan gua (Grafity tepatnya) selalu bersahabat dengan si seri 80 buah dengan 3 macam Push-Up, Sit-Up, and Back-Up.
Dan masih kebayang di benak gua, tereakan ci We saat itu, tereakan kita para Junior saat itu, yang ngelatih kita semua kuat dan membentuk Otot seperti sekarang ini! Hahahaha.

Dan taon selanjutnya, tibalah gua belajar apa yang namanya Cheerleader itu. Dari yang pertama belajar naik shoulderstand sampe akhirnya ngangkat shoulderstand.

Dari SecondFlyer jadi Base ShoulderStand. Banyakkkkk banget luka pada saat itu! Bahu membiru dan sangat membiru! Dan di taon inilah gua baru mulai memasuki yang namanya l-o-m-b-a.

Di awalin dari lomba di 54, tampil berantakan, ngecewain ci We bahkan ko Roro. Dilanjutin ke lomba di 68, yang bikin ci We sedih banget, dan kita bener-bener juga ikutan down saat itu dan hampir semua nya ngerasa ikutan putus asa. Tapi kita tetp mao berjuang dan ngebuktiin kalo kita semua bisa. Disusul tampil di SMAK5, dan itu pertama kalinya ci We tidak menunjukkan muka marah nya, dan itu membuat kita enak dan mao usaha lagi. Then tampil di Opening dan Closing Lustrum Sekolah. Yang waktu Closing Lustrum itu, di hari itu juga kita lomba di Atrium dan pertama kalinya lomba ICC. Kita dapet peringkat ke 2 dan masuk ke final. After that ? Yap! POPMIE CHEERLEADANCE 2009 Regional Jakarta! Penampilan ke 7 kita dengan team beranggotakan 11 orang di tanggal 7-11-2009. Dengan ngebawain set India alias Bollywood, kita berhasil ngeraih Juara 1 Se- Jakarta, dan itu ngebawa kita ke Grand Final. Setelah itu kita balik lomba, final di Atrium dan ngeraih Peringkat ke 2. Dan setelah itu, 17 Januari 2010 kemaren, penampilan terakhir kita buat yang para kelas 3 yang udah mao lulus, GRAND FINAL POPMIE CHEERLEADANCE 2009-2010 NATIONAL COMPETITION. "From Bollywood to Hollywood" . With a lot of tears and also sacrifice, kita menutup semuanya itu dengan Juara 3. Memang, kita gak berhasil nutup semuanya dengan berhasil mempertahanin piala yang uda senior gua dapet taon lalu di taon ini, tapi gua percaya dalam nama Yesus, pasti Junior gua bisa ngerebut balik Piala itu di Popmie selanjutnya.

Banyak pengorbanan banget bisa sampe dilantik dan akhirnya menjadi Grafity (yang harus ditampar, tanda pelantikan sayang ala Grafity) sampe sekarang ini. Dari awal pertama gua harus berenti ngerokok demi Grafity waktu awal mau masuk (dan sempet diancem mao dikeluarin kalo masih ngerokok!), air mata, luka-luka, sakit, bengkak, merah-biru-ungu-hijau, sampe waktu yang biasanya gua selalu bermain-main yang semenjak jadi Grafity serasa kita gak punya libur. Tapi itu semua bikin kita makin nyatu dan ngebuat hidup gua better dari sebelomnya loh!

Banyak pengorbanan, banyak juga Kenangan nya! Kita semua ber- 11 pun jadi nyatu banget gara-gara sering -banget! latian dan ketemu bareng. Kita heboh bareng-bareng, ngegossip, sampe bikin Video Marshanda! Hahahaha

Dan semuanya itu bakal bikin kita semua yang sekarang udah Retired ato p-e-n-s-i-u-n ini kangennnn bangetttttttt sama semuanya itu! Latian dance di Lt. 7 bareng ko Roro yang selalu tertawa! Latian pyramid di lt. 2 bareng ci We, sampe Running di lt. 8. Kangen banget sama tereakan sayang ci We, dance keren nya ko Roro, mix an lagu dari ko Rere, juga suasana nagis bareng-bareng nya, doa bareng nya, dan banyak pokonya! M-a-s-i-h-b-a-n-y-a-k-b-a-n-g-e-t! Dan mustahil itu gua ucapin disini semuanya.

Sekarang . .

Udah pensiun! (Arggh! Beneran deh! Gua masih pengen berada di Grafity dan latian setiap harinya dan seharusnya!) Tapi mao gimana? Pasti bakal ada ending nya kok, dan walaupun gua sekarang uda gak berkarya di Grafity lagi, Grafity always on my heart! I love you so MUCH, my tripple coaches and my 10 girls. :D

Ps : One thing that make me dont want to leave St. James Senior High School was Grafity Cheerleader :)

in 2010

2010-01-03T21:41:00.003+07:00

Okay, Geez! Tommorow, is a first weekend in this year -masuk sekolah lagi! ARGHH I wish it not happen, I Hate You School, much! But, that 'school' thing must go on, and I don't have any choice. Errghh.

Now, 2010! What should I do? Banyak!
First, gua harus dietdietdietdietdietdietdietdietdietdietdietdiet dan berhenti membabi! Oh God, selam liburan ini gua makan melulu dan selalu membabi dan menjadi sapi. Kerjaannya cuman tidur-makan-tidur-makan(lagi!) And I must stop that routine!

Second, gua harus 'study hard' buat TO2,3,4,dst buat UN buat ULUM buat UAS and all of the same thing. Gila, gua jadi termotivasi belajar lagi gara-gara gua semester satu kemaren gua ranking 10! Bahaha I can't believe it. Well, it's been a long years that I've never had a 'Big 10 Rankings' and now I got it. Dan gua jadi maomaomao lagi buat naek ke peringkat selanjutnya. Cihuyy!

Third, gua gamao tau gua harus cari-dapet-nemu-jadian sama cowo! Gila woi! Uda 227hari (incl. this day!) gua ngejomblo. And it's freakin me out! Soalnya, disaat gua sendiri begini, hampir samue temen gua jadian -and that's make me so jealousy! Argh!

Fourth, after I found My Next-BoyFriend, gua harus jadian lama dan gak boleh maen-maen lagi kayak dulu. Oh come on C! Gua harus dewasa sekarang, bukan saatnya maen-maen in cowo lagi dan bukan saatnya cumaa sekedar status. Okay C? Got it!

Fifth, be a model! Y? Aaaa gua naksir bareng sama foto! Dan sekarang lagi jamannya orang-orang pada crazy-with-them-slr, dan gua mao jadi objek nya dong! So, buat semua yg punya slr dan mencari model, GUA MAOO dongg. Geez, I'm freakin out! Pray for me guys!

Sixth, get some job! Yea maybe sidejob. Gua mao dong kerjaaaa. Enak deh kayaknyaa dapet duit sendiri! Wohooo!

Seventh, have some BlackBerry and SLRCameras! Oh Daddy, I WANT IT!

Eighth, Ninth, Tenth, Oh God, please just answer all my wishes and prayers :D

Hello New Year, Bye-bye Holiday

2010-01-02T19:17:00.007+07:00

HELLOO MY BLOGIEGIEGIEGIESSS ! Smoochhh ♥

I Miss you ! Its been so long, cause its 2010 now! Hey, Happy New Year Guys and Happy Birthday World ! Wish this year :

- Fight for : GRAND FINAL POPMIE CHEERLEADANCE 2010! (doain ya!)
- Have a great social life better than before
- Have a BoyFriend! (Ouh please give me this!)
- Miracle!
- Study hard
- Graduate from Senior High Scool
- Finish ALL my Latest Exam
- Have a great score
- Enter a 'Susan Budiardjo Design Courses'
- A Car please!
- and all my dreams that haven't come true yet

Okay! Now my blogigies, tell you some story .
Hms, NEW YEAR . Jadi pas tanggal 31 Desember pagi-pagi jam 10.00 (siang sih sebenernya, tapi menurut gua ini masih pagi!) gua ditreakin, dibangunin, di gebrak-gebrakin, semua deh pokoknya sama nyokab gua, grgr temen gua, Jane -ouch I LOVE YOU sister! Mao ngajakin gua ke puncak bareng dia dan taon baruan disana. Karena masih setengah sadar, akhirnya gua bilang gua gak bisa, gua dirumah ajah, gakusah keluar. Karena gua pikir masalah udah slesai, gua kemali tidur, eh! Dia sms lagi lagi lagi, ngajakin gua ikut, pas gua mao bales tuh sms, dia uda nongol di depan rumah gua, and what's happen ? Gua ikut dia ke puncak akhirnya. Dengan buru-buru segala sesuatunya.

Nah, sampe di puncak, gua dapet sms dr cici gua, dia bilang ternyata dia jadi ke puncak dan suru gua ikut. (Okay, back to the top! Pas tanggal 30 nya tadinya gua uda diajakin cici gua buat ke puncak, nah dia blom ngabarin lagi jadi gua pikir gakjadi, tau-taunya jadi grr) And? Gua menyimpulkan, abis taon baruan bareng Jane and kluarganya, gua minta dijemput cici gua dan ikut nginep bareng dia dan temen-temennya. Oh God, gaktau kenapa gua seneng loh!

Sampe di vila tmennya cici gua, oke, gua simpulkan 'ini enak'. Why? Yah mungkin karena gua bareng sodara gua sendiri kali ya and most of all -no parents! Great, I ♥ it. And I can't expose my vacatiom on that place, -ssttt! It's secret. Just so you know, I'm enjoy my vacation here and I really-really don't want to go home! Geez! It's already second days of January! So quick and I hate it!

Yayayayya, seperti yang gua bilang sebelomnya ,It's already second days of January! So quick and I hate it! (again) Arghhh! Y? Soalnya hari ini tanggal 2, besok 3, besok 4! And you know what is mean? MASUK SEKOLAH LAGI. And the holiday is OVER. Sucks.

And okay must do : gua harus menikmati liburan gua yang uda tinggal sehari ini lagi -yaitu besok! arus berbuat sekehendak hati gua dan gak boleh nyia-nyia in one-day-holiday itu!

Okay Guys, time for go (bukan selamanya loh, hari ini doang kok!) and tomorrow I will bring you another great story again! See ya my blogigies! XOXO Smoochhhh ♥

Sendiri :(

2009-12-29T00:30:00.002+07:00

Gua merasa sendiri, oke, bukan sendiri dengan sendiri tanpa ada orang disebelah gua, bukan! Tapi gua sendiri, gua merasa sendiri, yeah you know? Gua kesepian. Bisa dibilang sekarang gua lagi gak punya perasaan, -bukan gua sih yang pasti, tapi orang-orang lagi gak berperasaan sama gua. Yeah you see, gua bener-bener0 ngiri sama temen-temen gua disana, mereka semua -hampir semua! punya BoyFriend yang sayang mereka banget. (Oh please C, you're trying!)

Oke, sejak kapan gua sendiri? I mean, menyendiri? Sebentar sih, tapi kenapa gua ngerasa lamaa bgth ya ? Let see, mungkin gua belom terbiasa sendiri dan kesepian kayak gini. But hell! Im almost freakin out of this.

Gua kangen masa-masa pacaran, gua kangen bilang dan dibilang in 'I Love You' setiap hari, gua kangen punya perasaan curiga waktu sang pacar gaktau pergi kemana, gua kangen dianterjemput dan ditemenin kemana-mana, oh GREAT! I Miss ALL of that!

Oke mungkin gua belom dikasih kesempetan itu sekarang ini, oke I will wait. Gua tau semua nya bakal ada buat gua tapi nanti! Oke nanti!

Merry Christmas ♥

2009-12-25T01:55:00.009+07:00

Ouch! December 25, 2009 ♥

Its Christmas Day, friends! And I do love it! Much! Why? Cause its a lot of present, Christmas song, and also Santa Claus! Geez! I just love him much ♥

Gua kangen banget masa-masa natal gua waktu gua masih kecil, banyak kado, dan masih berasa akan adanya si om Santa Claus :) Hahahhaa. Gua inget banget dulu, gua bener-bener nganggep kalo kado yang slalu gua dapetin waktu Natal itu dari Santa Claus (padahal sekaramg kita tau itu semua dari bonyok kita!) But I do Love it! Bahkan dulu, waktu gua masih kecil, setiap tanggal 2 Desember itu, gua pasti ngambilin rumput liar yang banyak dan gua taro di sepatu. Nah sepatu itu gua taro di depan pintu bersebelahan sama memo kecil yang isinya wishlist gua ke Santa -karena menurut kepercayaan gua dulu, Santa Claus itu berkeliling buat melihat keadaan setiap tanggal 3 Desember jam 12 malem! Jadi 'ceritanya' rumput itu buat ngasih makan rusanya si om Santa. Hahaha. Dan begitu gua liat besoknya, rumput beserta memo wishlist gua uda ilang karena cerutanya diambil Santa (padahal sih gua yakin diambil bokap gua!) biar kelihatannya si Santa itu beneran dateng ke rumah dan bakalan ngabulin permintaans gua. Hahaha. Lucu ya? Natal sewaktu kecil itu pasti lebih menyenangkan banget dibanding sekarang-sekarang ini. Why? Karena saat itu kita masih percaya 'Hadiah Natal dari Santa Claus', adanya si 'Pit Hitam' , dan banyak deh. And I Miss All Of That Christmas Thing(s) ♥

Okay, Natal taon ini? Yaa, gua sih ngerasain nya biasa ajah, nothing special maybe (jauh enakkan waktu masih kecil!). Gua ke greja like usually do at Christmas Day . But in this Christmas, I spending my Christmas Night at New Church, Santo Yakobus, dan waktu gua posting ini pun gua baru pulang dari situ. Gila! Thats a cool Church in Kelapa Gading I've ever seen ! Gereja nya baru di renovasi gitu, and its so damn beautifull . Gereja nya berubah jadi terlihat lebih gede, jadi ada lantai atasnya, ada kaca yang bergambar 12 Rasul, banyak pohon natal yang gede, (and it have a nice toilet too!) Mann, gua betah banget lohh disitu. Kangen banget sama gereja itu! Hahahaha ♥

And have a great Christmas Day guys, Joy Christmas, a Holly Beautifull Night, a lot of Present, and make your Christmas Day a Champion. Have a Blast! Smoocchh ♥

Once Again,

♥♥♥♥♥ Merry Christmas 2009 ♥♥♥♥♥

?

2009-12-24T00:46:00.002+07:00

"Mataku terpejam sesaat . Badanku mulai mngikuti suasana . Terdengar alunan musik merdu . Nadanya pelan-pelan menghanyutkan perasaan . Tanganku melambai-lambai ke atas . Jentik-jentik jemariku mulai mengayun ke atas ke bawah . Menepis kemunafikan . Melepas kepenatan . Menentang kejenuhan .

Perlahan itu musnah . Hati ini menjerit kesakitan . Badan ini mulai membelah . Rusak! Perih pun menambah kebusukkan . Terbentang luas hingga ke nadi . Detak jantungku kencang tak seperti biasanya . Beda . Menarik pandangan .

Situasi pun mulai goyah . Semua terbelalak . Ikut dalam suasana . Ikut dalam perasaan . Semua emosi pun meluap . Bergerak tidak sesuai irama . Pecah!"

Oke . Dan apa arti dari semuanya itu ? Hahahaha . Gua pun gaktau apa yang gua tulis . Gua cuman ngeluarin kata-kata apa yang pengen gua tulis tanpa sedikit pun gua tau apa artinya dari masing-masing kata itu . Freak ? Yeah , I think so .

Gossip Girl

2009-12-20T19:11:00.005+07:00

Okay , Gosip Girl - There's some title of Tv Series that I am watching now . And hell yeah , its cool . So cool .

Pertama gua cuman denger-denger kabar , about banyak orang yang berbicara tentang Gossip Girl , and Im kinda a little bit curious on that . So , gua ngomong sama adek kelas gua yang dia juga sebagai a Big Fan of- Gossip Girl , gua minjem semua dvd nya , Full Season . And you know what ? Its Amazing , I think now Im in love with that Series . Oh my , I wanna be like that Gossip Girl in Manhattan .

XOXO ,
Gossip Girl -wanna be

WHY -word

2009-12-19T19:06:00.002+07:00

Bahahaahha . Gila! Selama 2 hari ini selama lagi gua latian Cheers -gua, iccil, molin, sisi, cathy, cipit sangat-sangat memperbanyak dan mempertanyakan kata 'KENAPA?' hahahaha
Bingung ? So do I ! Hahahah

Banyak banget pertanyaan-pertanyaan di otak kita semua, like . .

- Kenapa bagian belakang badan itu disebut 'punggung' ?
- Kenapa semua diawalin pake huruf 'P' ? Seperti 'Pinggang' , 'Punggung , 'Pinggul' ?
- Kenapa urutan nya itu harus 'Mata-hidung-mulut' , kenapa bukan 'Mulut-hidung-mata' ?
- Kenapa angka itu harus cuma amapi 9 ? Kenapa gak ada angka baru lagi ? (rasanya gua pengen nambahin angka baru!)
- Kenapa orang bisa ngebedain mana yang nama buat orang sama nama yang buat benda ? (we can't named someone with 'Meja' aight ?)
- Kenapa harus kita yang sibuk cari nilai di sekolah , kenapa bukan nilai yang nyari kita ?
- Kenapa Layar dan Keypad Handphone harus jadi 1 , kenapa gak Keypad dan Layar nya dibedain ?
- Kenapa harus Layar nya yang diatas , kenapa gak Keypad nya ajah yang diatas ?
- Kenapa banyak kata-kata yang gak penting dibuat seperti 'mesti' , 'kudu' , 'wajib' padahal artinya SAMA ?
- Kenapa kita semua bisa berpikiran seperti ini ?
- Kenapa semua punya otak ?
- Kenapa manusia gak diciptakan dengan semuanya yang sama rata ?
- Kenapa , kenapa , kenapa ?

and much more . .

LOL . Geez! Kita semua cuman ngebelalak terbahak-bahak kalo denger pertanyaan masing-masing yang dilontarkan dengan innocent . Hahahaha
Kami bukan bodoh dengan pertanyaan seperti ini , kami bukan ingin berperilaku annoying , tapi kami cuman ingin berpikiran kritis dan ingin tahu banyak ! There's nothing wrong , aight ?

B E T T E R ♥

2009-12-15T20:26:00.007+07:00

Hey My Bloggieloggiegiesss , I miss you so much ! ♥♥♥♥♥

You know what ? Setelah beberapa hari ini , setelah gue pikirin mateng-mateng , dan setelah gua berusaha banget , hasilnya ? Im So Over It Now ! Gila gua masi ga bisa percaya sama diri gua sendiri . Hey Boy ! Now I can DO IT without you . Im feelling better now (a lot) !

Gua uda bisa senyum lagi , gua uda bisa ketawa bahagia lagi , gua uda bisa ngejalanin semuanya tanpa beban . Uda gak pernah ngerasa jealoussy lagi , uda gak pernah kepikiran lagi , uda gak pernah nyesek tiap kali ngeliat mereka (oh God , I can't believe it , Im so brave now ! Thanks!) Intinya , gua uda bisa ngelupain semua masa-masa yang uda gua laluin bareng dia , cause honestly (it's real!) I just realize that I don't love you , yeah , I don't love you , again , I don't love you ! LOL . Geez , I don't believe I just said that , I don't love you . Jadi apa perasaan yang selama ini gua rasain ? Hmsss , let see , gua emang penah berada di rasa 'sedikit sayang' sama lo dan gua 'cuma' sedikit shock lo tiba-tiba ngejar temen baek gua , but hey ! FYI boy -and you too girl , gua gak sakit kog , gua cuman a little bit shock , jadi kalo sekarang lo mao pacaran di depan gua , mao rangkul-rangkulan di depan gua , ato apapun itu lah yaaaaa , gua uda gak peduli , gua uda gak mikirin lagi , Im Over It , Im SO O ver It :DDDDDDD

Feel sorry for :

- All My Friends ,

Yes maybe before I got frustrated with all of you, because I felt none of you is a bit of attention to me, but maybe I was a little wrong, because now I know you all love me. And friends, I love you more than anything, and I really hope that you can forgive my mistakes if I do something stupid (and also forgive my previous writings about you all!) Since that time I was in a position very easily shaken (yes you all know what happened to happen to me) because at that moment I really felt did not have anyone, and I know you all are not there beside me when I really needed you to ask for your understanding as I fell, but yes maybe you're all too confused to be in a position to defend the place. And that's okay, I'm not blaming it all. Once again, forgive me my friends, I may be wrong about you. You all the best I've ever had. Smooch ! :)

- My beloved friend , yang dulu pernah gua sakitin karena udah ngambil dia dan yaa bisa dibilang sekarang gua dapet -karmanya. I am really sorry Wie honey :)
- My beloved friend (another) , yang sekarang jadian sama dia karena mungkin gua terlalu anak kecil sempet sedikit kesel sama lo , tapi hey BF , gua gakpapa sekarang (sekali lagi gua cuman shock!) dan ini dari hati gua yang paling dalem , "Congratulations Mils" ♥ You're still My Bestie ever :)
- My EX , Geez! Sori ajah deh kalo udah pernah nyakitin lo . Still friends :)

Good , now Case Closed , Case Clear , and have a great relationship you two ! :)
-but hey! Please give any boy! Hahahaha Oooops!

must do!

2009-12-10T21:39:00.004+07:00

Okay, Must do :

- Feels nothing. Like never happen, like everything is okay. Believe it! It'll goes better!
- Be a stronger girl.
- Have an ordinary relationship with them.
- Close my ear when they started to talk about me behind my back.
- Dont ever blow out them secrets, cause they already have some part in my heart, and its not gonna be replaced.
- Always smile when the other girl'S started to throw me up.

And they just started to know, I love them very much, even I've started to a little bit stay away from them.
Sorry girls, I just dont want to get hurt anymore :)

Is It Friendship or What ?

2009-12-10T20:21:00.007+07:00

And Im really so confused. I dont know what should I do now.
Have you ever be me ? Have you ever in my position ?
Or just think a little bit how to be me and what would it feel ?

Strong, tough, brave, smile :)
Is that you always see ?
Geez! FYI, its outside, its just some part of me, maybe a little part.
And its not easy gurls, its HARD.
And first of all, its FULL of PAIN.
A much pain, a lot of pain.

But even I dont think about that anymore, even I never be jeloussy to her anymore.
I just feel strange. Seems its not fair.
All of them, come and go like nothings happen.
They come, they cry, they have much stories to tell. And they blame it on to me.
They want some sense called "UNDERSTANDING" and I always gave that.
And I always tried to make them not upset anymore.

But what I've got next ?
Even my -bestfriend'S- dont do that !
Where are they when I need them ?
Where are they when I need some understanding feel like I always gave them ?
Where are they when Im down and when Im feel so slipped ?
ZERO .
Again, the result is Zero.

Sometimes I think, I dont have FRIEND, I mean . . a REAL FRIEND.
Sometimes I dont know who should I call a FRIEND, a REAL FRIEND of course.
There's some 18 people arounds me, but I didn't see who should I call a real friend between them.
Cause they are not here when I need them to recovered my pain.

Okay, maybe they're come into me and want a solution is something they called friendship.
But what they gave me ?
They just said a little part of word (and there's not gonna maked me feel better, Friend)
That's it, and they go, go away.
Then they go to another friend and restore my story to her.
They blame it on to her (like two faces do)
And they like to assist her next to me.
So why you come to me and ask "What happen, dear?", if you dont ever listen to me ?
Shit.
I though I have a real friend, but in the real life, I do not have it, even ONCE.

Geez !
So, 'till when should I always being a loser ? And always maked you 'all' won everytime ?
Im not important to them.
They like, like maked myself some, i dont know, supplement maybe.
To complete they're group. To maked them group more loud ? Crowded ? I dont know.
To complete something they called a "FRIENDSHIP".
Like they just feel sorry to me.
And that is not called a FRIEND.

I dont have any idea.
I AM NOTHING TO THEM.
AND IM OUT OF HERE !

Its makes you all feel better, aight ?
Calm down, friend. I dont hate you all. Just so you know, I still love you all :)

Freaky Morning

2009-12-07T19:55:00.006+07:00

My mother knocked my door and start screaming, "CZLEEEEE" . I woke up and when i look at my room clock . .

Anjrit ! Jam TUJUH ! Oke , gua kesiangan (lagi) dan kali ini lebih parah , JAM TUJUH . Dan saat itu gua masih Ulangan Akhir Sekolah alias UAS yang 'menyenangkan' itu . Tanpa pikir panjang gua langsung sikat gigi dan buru-buru masuk kamar mandi dengan asal basah alias mandi bebek . Gak pake beresin kamar , gua langsung ganti baju , make kaoskaki , siapin botol minum buat latian , dan langsung tacuuu brangkat ke sekolah . Gilak !

Sampe di sekolah , udah jam setangah 8 kurang (mann , setengah jem ngebut! and I cant believe it) . Gua ambil surat ijin masuk dan jalan (nyantai loh!) ke ruang ujian gua . Serasa yang punya sekolah , tanpa ngetok-ngetok pintu , gua langsung masuk dan pas gua liat guru yanga ngawas . . "God DO Bless Me!" Gua ngomong ke diri gua sendiri . Hahahaha ! Guru yang ngejaga kelas gua itu guru Kesenian yang yahhhhh bisa dibilang okelahhh . So , tanpa pikir panjang , gua yang tadinya kecimpringan takut keabisan waktu ngerjain UAS , tapi begitu ngeliat gurunya , gua langsung nyantai dan bilang ke diri gua sendiri 'bisalahhhh!' Hahahahaha .

And I love this last day of exam ! -I mean , this last day of exam is so freaky morning ! . Lol :D

FOR : 5 Desember 2009 :)

2009-12-07T19:30:00.005+07:00

" Lewat tengah malam, menuju pagi tepatnya. Jam di kamar menunjukkan pk 02.30 pagi. Aku termenung, terlelap dalam keseharianku. Tak ada yang bisa menggantikan momen-momen tersebut saat semuanya mulai beranjak dan mulai perlahan.

Hati ini meluap-luap kegirangan, sesaat terdengar bunyi klakson kendaraan beroda empat. “Tin – tin – tin !” Berirama, perlahan, tapi memaksa keluar. Aku pun keluar merasa bingung. Kubuka pintu rumah ku dan melihat seseorang yang berwajah familiar memaksaku untuk masuk ke dalam mobilnya. “Siapa dia?” benakku menyerukan. “Rasanya aku tahu orang ini.” Dia terus memaksaku dan menarikku , menyeret aku untuk duduk dalam singgasananya. Aku pun teringat dan tiba-tiba terlintas membuatku tak percaya. “Robert Pattinson!” hatiku berteriak, hatiku bergejolak ingin berontak. “Ia! Ini Robert! Robert si vampir dalam cerita maya ku itu!” Bibirku ingin mengucapkan dan teriak, tanganku ingin meraih, namun semuanya berhenti saat dirinya kemudian menyapaku “Hai, aku Robert, kamu Cecille bukan?” Aku terdiam, lidahku ingin bersilat “Ia! Ini aku! Aku!” tak sempat dan belum terbuka, aku hanya bodoh dan mengganguk pelan.

Sambil berusaha menenangkanku, dia terus mengajakku berbicara, dan mengenalkan aku kepada yang lain disitu, yang tanpa aku sadari ada manusia lain di mobil itu bukan hanya kami berdua. Manusia itu menyodorkan tangannya dan memperkenalkan dirinya “Hai, aku Taylor. Taylor Lautner.” Berbeda dengan Robert, dia tampak begitu rapih, pendiam, tipikal lelaki cuek yang hanya mengucap jika benar-benar diperlukan. Aku hanya sesekali menggangguk dan mulai bisa tersenyum tenang.

Beberapa menit berlalu –dan aku sugdah mulai terbiasa tentunya , aku pun memberanikan diri untuk bertanya,
“Ada apa kau menjemputku dan mengajakku pergi bersamamu seperti ini?”
“Oh ya , aku hanya ingin mengajakkmu ikut pemotretan bersamaku, tidak keberatan kan?” dia menjawab.
Aku menggeleng seakan tak percaya, aku tersenyum kegirangan. “Orang yang di elu-elu kan dan dicintai banyak wanita itu ada di depanku, berbicara padaku, dan saat ini mengajakku pergi!” pikiran it uterus membunuhku membuat mukaku tersenyum kaku tak bisa kembali.

Sambil menuju lokasi pemotretan –yang aku benar tak percaya! , aku mulai berani untuk berbincang-bincang dengannya, pikirku aku tak mau menyia-nyiakan hal ini begitu saja, aku berkata bahwa aku telah mem-follow twitternya (twitter: trend website saat ini) dan ia pun berkata akan mem-follow balik punyaku. Aku tersenyum dan kali ini tidak kaku, aku sudah bisa membiasakan diriku dengannya saat itu. Kami mulai berbicara banyak layaknya teman yang sudah berkenalan lama, dan aku suka itu, aku tak ingin hari itu berakhir.

Sesampainya di tempat tujuan, tempat pemotretan itu, sebuah lapangan luas yang penuh bunga-bunga di sekelilingnya, indah. Rob dan Tay pun membuka bajunya, “Mereka telanjang dada!” Aku berteriak dalam hatiku melonjak kegirangan, aku pun meleleh ditempat tak kuasa menahan itu –dan aku bisa pasikan aku terlihat bodoh saat itu! Aku pun ganti baju untuk menyesuaikan pakaian mereka dan kami melakukan pemotretan.

Pemotretan berlangsung selama satu jam. Pemotretan itu terasa mengasyikkan dan membuatku tak ingin berhenti. Selagi asyik nya aku, Rob, dan Tay bersahabat dengan blitz-blitz kamera, mulai perlahan-lahan banyak orang berdatangan ingin melihat. Aku bingung siapa mereka. Rob menenangkanku sambil membelai rambutku, “Tenang, itu hanya paparazzi yang ingin meliput kita.” Katanya sambil mengajakku kembali bergaya. “Hah? Paparazzi?” benakku, aku tak percaya aku terliput bagaikan artis yang ada di selalu ada di harian gossip televisi -bahkan kelas dunia! Aku membuang nervous-ku dan kembali menikmati menjadi ‘Artis Sehari’.

Senakin lama semakin banyak dan semakin mengganggu, mereka mulai lepas control dan berteriak-teriak membuat kami pusing, mereka berseru da mulai mengeluarkan kamera dan handphone mereka untuk mengabadikan momen-momen Rob an Tay berada di Indonesia. Tay merasa terganggu, dan akhirnya menyudahi semuanya. Para ‘penonton’ itu pun merasa kecewa, tapi apa boleh buat, kami pun segera merapihkan semua perlengkapan dan segera pergi dari tempat itu.

Beberapa menit menuju pukul 5 pagi, di mobil terasa lamaaa sekali dan aku pun tak ingin menyudahi semua itu. Kami terus bercanda gurau dan akhirnya kendaraan roda empat itu berhenti di depan rumahku. Aku tak ingin turun dari situ, aku ingin terus berada diampingnya, tapi sekali lagi Rob menenangkanku “Tenang, nanti kita pasti akan bertemu lagi, aku janji” ,dia mencium keningku dan pergi. Aku pun masuk ke dalam rumah dan masih dalam prasangka tidak percaya, aku menuju laptop hijau ku, membuka twitter, dan sudah tertera disana “rbpattinson86 is now following you”. Aku meloncat kegirangan! Dia menepati janjinya dan aku suka itu.

Dan akhirnya kita pun berbalas-balaskan twitt itu (seperti chat tepatnya) dengan melihat semua orang iri kepadaku. Mereka semua bertanya kepadaku mengapa aku bias mendapatkan pria vampire itu, mengapa, kenapa, semua pertanyan diloncarkan kepadaku, aku tidak bisa menjawab. Aku bingung. Akhirnya aku melihat jam yang tak aku sangka, jam dinding kamarku menunjukkan pukul 5 tepat, dan . . . . "

BLEPSZZZZZZ ! Gue kebangun dan ngeliat jam, “Pk 05.00” . Geez! Gue mimpi! Itu semua cuman mimpi! Yayayayyaya, lagipula mana mungkin itu semua menjadi kenyataan? Hahahaha . Whatever it is, dream, fairytale, story, or real life, gue ngehargain semuanya itu, gue uda cukup seneng udah ‘bertemu’ sama si vampir yang bisa membuat gue melting tiap saat! God, you’re amazing, Robert Pattinson is so hot! I love it!

And FYI , ini sebenernya posting an 2 hari yg lalu , cuman karena masalah internet dan komputer yang najis , gua baru bisa posting sekarang ! NICE speedy !

What A Day ♥

2009-12-03T20:55:00.007+07:00

Hari ke -4 UAS yang menyebalkan itu . So far my exam score is good enough (esp. my MATHEMATICS) :D Hahaha .

Geografi : 84 (higher score at my class !)
Bahasa Inggris : 7,13
Bahasa Indonesia : 6.6 (sucks)
Matematika : 75 (yeah , I done it !)
Komputer : 80

And I waiting for other examscore hahahaha :)

Oke , dibalik kesenangan semata itu , besok gue UAS Ekonomi yang digabung dengan UAS Akuntansi . And its kind of sucks ! Why ? Karena gue gaktau harus belajar dari mana . First , Catetan Ekonomi gue yng dari udah lama ilang belom ketemu (sampe sekarang) padahal itu catetan ada bahan ulangan nya , Manajemen . Dan satu lagi , Catetan Akuntansi gue (tepatnya kelas gue) masih nginep di sekolah , gara-gara si Bu Elvi alias Guru Akun nya belom balikin tuh buku . Nice ! Jadi gue cuman bermodalkan buku Cetak EkonomiAkuntansi dan Catetan Ekonomi baru tentang Badan Usaha . Dan lagi-lagi gue cuman bisa ngarep kelas gue yang jaga itu Ms, Christine a.k.a guru Bahasa Inggris , so I can answred my Economics Exam Perfectly ! :)

. . .

Okay , another topics , dibalik ke najis- an UAS itu , I want to share some :

http://twitter.com/rpattinson86

You know what ? I've found Robert Pattinson's Twitter ! Geez . Dari kemaren gue nyari loh , akhirnya ketemu juga ! Hhahaha . Love You , Robert ! :) :) :)

cant stop wishin' ♥

2009-12-01T15:17:00.016+07:00

Heii its December guys ! And I love December ! Its Christmas , and New Year ! Banyak kado-kado dan liburrrrr ! Happy December :)

Tapi sekarang , hari ini , Senin, 1 Desember 2009 , gue lagi UAS dan bikin awal mula bulan Desember gue jadi enek !

Sehabis belajar Agama , buat UAS hari ketiga , besok . Dengan mumet nya otak dan pusing karena si Agama digabung dengan mata pelajaran paling mengasyikkan , Matematika. Geez !
Tapi dibanding mikirin begituan , tepatnya *Matematika* , gue langsung menuju komputer gue dan terlintas di otak gue pengen bgth nulis blog ( and meet you all guys ! :D ), about my long wishes . Hmmsss , i cant stop imagine it . ALL of it :D

Do you want to know ?

First of all , gue kepengenn bgth keliling dunia dalam 1hari yaitu di tanggal 25 Desember dan memecahkan rekor MURI sebagai predikat "A 17th Girl its Around The World in ONE Day (December, 25)" ! yea , I know its impossible , SO impossible , but its my dream ! Jadi terserah gue , semua berawal dari mimpi toh ? Gue kepengen bgth gaktau knapa . Kelihatan asyik ajah kali yaa , ngeliat semua isi dunia , jalanjalan ke negara tetangga mana aja , nikmatin salju (kalo bisa bawa pulang !) hahaha , dan BELANJA yang pasti ! :) hahahaha . Ya ya ya , mungkin cumas hanya sekedar angan-angan sih , but who knows if there's a lot of miracle come for me ?

Selain bertabut di mimpi keliling dunia yang gila itu (tapi pengen !) , yahh masi sekitar mengunjungi negaranegara sih , I want to live in JAPAN and wear them kimono for a night . Idk , I just love Japan for a long time .

(Again) Masih tentang "negara" , gue pengen foto di kicir-kicir nya HOLLAND , NETHERLAND . LOL . I know its kind of sucks , but I think its cool cause Indonesia doesn't have "Big Fan" like that . Hmmm

Okay , off about country , gue pengen have a 17days dating with Robert Pattinson ! Ouch ! Not only me , I think thats a lot of girls (include you maybe !) want this to , aight ? :D I love Robert Pattinson , gilak ! Sejak gue ngeliat acting nya di Twilight sebagai si Vampire , Edward Cullen , mata gue gak berhenti melotot , Damn ! He's a adorble guy , ever ! God , please make this dreams come true !

Udah sampe mimpi ke 5 ? Waw so much dreams that I have . Hmm , let see , I want to live alone in my own house and with my own design also . Gue dari dulu kpengeenn bgth yang namanya tinggal sendiri dan beli sendiri serta nge - design rumah gue sendiri itu . Dengan kolam ikan yang dilapisi kaca sebagai lantai seluruh isi rumah , bedroom with a huge closet (cause i will go shoping , shoping , and shoping , so i must have a big room for that !) , kamar mandi dengan bathtub di tengah-tengah , gazebo dan rerumputan luas di taman belakang , bahkan gu juga mau punya Roof Garden + ayunan di tengah-tengah nya , awrrr gak ada abisnya deh kalo gue terus ngebayangin seluruh isi 'rumah idaman' gue itu !

Dan daripada ngomongin rumah yang gak ada abisnya , disamping itu gue juga pengen dan berangan-angan jadi Fashion Designer , yeah . Top , Famous , Adorable Fashion Designer , ever ! Gue sukaa banget sama men desain baju , its make my mind fly away and start thinking of something new , ahh lagi lagi gue sekarang pun kepikiran mao gambar baju lagi , and its freakin fun !

Another dreams . . Gue mao terkenal ! Hahahahahahaha , gue gak tauk kenapa gue nulis ini , yaahhh gue pikir semua orang mau terkenal , cuma sekarang ngeliat dari cara dan kerja keras seseorang itu ajah buat jadi famous . So how about you , do you want to be famous too ?

Berkenaan dengan famous , gue mao jadi orang yang banyak duit dan gak abis-abis . And again , its everybody's dreams !

Gue mao pelihara sepasang anjing , Siberrian Husky , dan bawa mereka jalan-jalan keluar tiap sore . Aaaaaa mao banget gue anjing itu . Keren ! Apalagi kalo bisa dibawa , dipamerin ke semua tetangga ! Haahaha . Ngerawat , mandiin , ngasih makan , maenin , ah semuanya , gue pengen banget pelihara anjing , karena dari dulu (sampe sekarang !) gue gak dikasih pelihara anjing sama bokap nyokap gue , padahal gue suka gue maomaomao banget!

Terus , sebagai anak perempuan kecil yang sayang banget sama keluarganya , gue pengen beliin mobil yang banyak buat daddy dan ngebantuin dia kerja di kantornya senidiri , gue juga mao beliin rumah buat mommy dengan dapur yang superdupergede , terus gue juga bakal ngasih adek gue satu tempat dengan segudang komputer jadi dia bisa ngewujud in cita-cita bodohnya dia sebagai penjaga dan pemilik warnet !

And last (but not least ! cause I do have a lot , more) gue mao punya pesawat pribadi dan bawa bokap nyokap dan adek gue jalanjalan kemanapun mereka mau . Tinggal perintah dan langsung jalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnn !

Hahahahaha gila , banyak juga ya , tapi itu semua kan yang terlintas di otak gue , gue hanya nulis semua itu , dan gue suka ! Dan semua mimpi gue -oops ! Mungkin gue perlu nyebut itu semua cita-cita , bukan mimpi- , I mean cita-cita gue semua itu berharap banget bakal gue wujud in suatu saat nanti dan bikin semua orang terkagu-kagum sama apa yang udah gue buat . Dan sekarang dibanding melihat ke atas cita-cita gue yang bertumpuk , gue harus belajar dulu , dan especially belajar Matematika buat UAS besok supaya nilai gue gak merah (lagi) :)

NEW MOON ♥

2009-11-28T09:06:00.013+07:00

Yesterday, 27 November 2009,

@ La Piazza, Studio 1 on 3.15 PM , im watching that film ,

N E W ♥ M O O N

Geez ! Edward Cullen its freaking me outtttttt !

When he walking , screaming , biting , and kissing also !

God , im speechlessss ! Just watch it ! :D

2009-11-22T16:51:00.002+07:00

so bored

. . .

2009-11-20T22:28:00.002+07:00

Pernah ngerasain sakit hati karena sesuatu yg lo ga pernah nyangka dan rasanya lo sayanginn bgth ?
Pernah ngerasain nyeseknya dada lo waktu lo ngeliat sesuatu yang WAW banget di mata lo , yang lo ga pernah duga sama sekali ?
Pernah ngerasain munculnya pemikiran di otak lo tentang sesuatu yang GILAK ! GUE GAK NYANGKA ! ?
Pernah terlintas banyak macem pertanyaan , like MASA ? OH YA ? SERIUS ? ?
Dan semua itu benerbener ngosongin otak lo akan semuanya , dan saat itu juga lo rasain kalo ada yang netes dan membasahin semua bagian tubuh lo , satu per satu , dikit demi sedikit , dan akhirnya b a s a h .
Yap ! Who knows suatu saat itu bisa terjadi k lo ? Semua itu ga terduga , semua itu ga terbayang , dan semua itu juga rasanya ga pengen lo denger dan ga pengen lo tau .
Blablablablablabla . . Cuma purapura staycool , purapura seneng , dan purapura berbesar hati supaya terhindar dari perputusan tali yang uda gue iket slama ini .

Love you F .

DADDY ♥

2009-11-19T21:55:00.004+07:00

HAPPY BDAAYYY DADDY !!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i swear , its your little girl that always makes you proud , veryveryvery proud !

Love You , My Super Dads ! Smoocchh ♥

huks .

2009-11-19T21:49:00.003+07:00

and i dont know what to say , i dont know very dont know , even my feel , i really dont know :'C

capekk

2009-11-18T06:53:00.003+07:00

Pernah gak si l ngerasa satu per satu kekayaaann* l ilang perlahanlahan , pernah l ngerasa l harus movingout tiap taon ? Pernah l ngerasa semuanya yg saat ini gue rasaain ? Gue ggtauk harus berbuat apaa lagi , pernah gak l ngerasain idub n t beraaatt bgth , pernah gak l ngerasain klo gag ad lagi org yg yg bakal an respect lagi m l , cuman grgr one thing itu ajah , yg buat idub kita semuanya jadi berantakan , dan l gak ku bnerbner gak kuat harus ngejalanin semuanya itu . Gilak , gue rasa gue jd org yg sangat *beruntung ngedapetin semuanya itu .

God , I need You , give me one more chance , give me some light , give me some brightness , I reallyreally want my past life , I reallyreally want my life back . .

Cuma bisa bilang makasi dan cuma bisa pasrah , cuma bisa ngelakuin apa yg apa harus dilakuin dan gue pun gaktau itu apaaaaa . . :C

OVER IT !

2009-11-17T22:49:00.006+07:00

Geez !

There's so manymanymanymuch guy , that'll sayin a lot of I LOVE YOU for me

A LOT OF GUY
A LOT OF BOYFRIEND
A LOT OF FLOWERS
A LOT OF LOVEWORDS
A LOT OF HEART

So , why i must stick on you ?

NO , from now !

Im move on and now im SO OVER IT !

BYEBYE ,

MY LULLYLULLYBELOVED BOY , ooppsss !

i mean . .

REALLY LULLYLULLY ~~BELOVED~~ EX- BOY ! :D

LOL

ENEKK !!!!!!!

2009-11-15T00:17:00.004+07:00

Fuck You Very Much

Look inside, look inside your tiny mind
Then look a bit harder
'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired
Of all the hatred you harbor

So you say it's not okay to be gay
Well, I think you're just evil
You're just some racist who can't tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Do you get, do you get a little kick
Out of being small minded?
You want to be like your father
It's approval you're after
Well, that's not how you find it

Do you, do you really enjoy
Living a life that's so hateful?
'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be
You're losing control a bit
And it's really distasteful

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you

You say you think we need to go to war
Well, you're already in one
'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you very, very much
'Cause your words don't translate
And it's getting quite late
So please don't stay in touch

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you !

. . .

Enek gue sama lo ! Taoo ? Penghancur idup gue !

DAMN !

2009-11-13T23:45:00.004+07:00

Geez , I MISS HIM A LOTLOTLOTLOTLOT ! :(

. . .

crying (again)

DONE IT ! ♥

2009-11-13T00:04:00.007+07:00

Tadi j 7an stengah 8 gue pergi ke Artha Gading bareng Dennis , gue minta dia temenin , buat bikin baju KEMBARANS m bokab gue , buat hadiah ulang taonnya tanggal 19 November naanti :)

Sampe Artha Gading , mutermuter sama Dennis , nyari tempatnya , kata Kevin 'Sang Informan' , tempatnya ada di Lt. 1 sebelah Koufu . Muter - muter gue sama Dennis nyari , gak ketemu - ketemu , ampe uda nelponin Kevin dan gangguin dia lagi masak buat nanya in haha
Akhirnya dengan kejelian mata Dennis , tempat bikin baju itu ketemu ! Ternyata tempatnya cuma kayak stand gt , bukan toko , haiss . .

Gue ngasih desain an yang ud gue buat k mas nya , mas nya dengan pedeny bilang "Ohh ya bia kok" . Dengan senangnya gue meng iya kan . Setelah beberapa menit , gue ngeliat in masnya buat t gambar di Corel Draw , gue merasa ada yang aneh , dia gambbar nya jadi cacat gt , ah , akhirnya gue sendiri yang bikin t gambar d Adobe Photoshop pake komputer dia , jadi gue berasa dirumah deh , serasa lagi ngedit foto ajah dirumah hahaha

Abis ngeditngeditngedit dan gak berasa uda 2 jem disana , akhirnya gambarnya selesai ! Siap di print ! Dan dibentuk baju ! Argh ! Akhirnya gue punya baju itu yang tadinya uda sempet gakniat buat bikin lagi grgr toko POPPIES di deket rumah gue yang mba nya nybelin abis . Tapi sekarang , gue ud berhasil buat bajunya ! Haha

Selesai ! My Couple T-Shirt was done ♥

Tq Dennis , ud nemenin gue sampe kelaperan, jasamu tak terlupa ! hahahaha :)

Want to look ?

Me : Daddy :

And Taa - Daaaa . . . . .

I Love It ! ♥

ECHA's SURPISE ♥

2009-11-12T23:32:00.007+07:00

♥ HAPPY BDAY , RESCA NOVIANTY :)

12 November 2009,
Resca Novianty alias ECHA , bdae k 18 , hha tuaak ih echa ! hahah

Sehabis interview dan exkul vidiografi , gue beserta maio memberikan kue k echa , sok sok surprise gt de , padahal katanya echa ny ud curiga gt sbenernya , tp ttap saja kita berhasil ! hahahaha

Dengan kue yang dadakan , terburuburu , dan terhimpit waktu .
Jadi , uda pulang sekolah , uda siang , masih belom ada yang jalan buat beli kue , akhirnya sitemukan satu keputusan , yaitu DELIVERY . haha

Dengan menggunakan BB BOLD ichil , diakses lah nomornomor telpon kue , dan hasilnya ?

- 1st call : Dapur Coklat ♥
result - NIHIL

mba : sore , bisa dibantu ?
czle : mba , delivery sekarang bisa ?
mba : wah , saya hubungkan ke pusat aja ya mba ?
czle : oke
beberapa saat kemudian . .
mba : sore , bisa dibantu ?
czle : mba , mau delivery sekarang bisa ?
mba : wah maav mba , delivery kami tutup sampai j 3 saja (sedangkan sekarang j stengah 4an)
czle : oh ya , makasih ya (sambil swt)

-2nd call : Harvest ♥
result - NIHIL

mas : sore , bisa dibantu ?
czle : mas , delivery sekarang bisa ?
mas : wah , bisanya nanti j 6 baru dianter , soalnya kita kalo delivery harus sehari sebelumnya , sekarang orangnya lagi nganter semua mba
czle : oh , yudah , makasi ya mas

-3rd call : Dynamic ♥
result : FINALLY . . .

mba : sore , bisa dibantu ?
czle : mba , saya mao delivery sekarang bisa ?
mba : mba telpon ke pusat saja , disini dynamic yg di mall
czle : oh iaa , berapa nomornya ?
mba : (mengucapkan nomor)
czle : makasih yaa
telpon ke pemasaraan . .
mba : sore, bisa dibantu ?
czle : mba saya mao delivery sekarang juga , bisa ?
mba : oh BISA , mau kue apaa ?
bla bla bla . . . . .

Pulang vidiografi , Echa diajak mutermuter m Atel Moleen Adit , pake diboongin kalo kunci motor Yanto ilang , yaah tapi karna keterbatasan akting Yanto , Echa sudah mulai curiga hahaha

Akhirnya , setelah kue nya dateng , kita nyamperin Echa di kantin yang lg soksok diajak curhat Atel , dan . .

Happy Bday Echa !
Happy Bday Echa !
Happy Bday !
Happy Bday !
Happy Bday Echaaaaaa !

And then she make a wish , blow the candle , and share the cake :)

♥ Once again more , Happy Birthday Echa !
Hope you'll better than before and wishin you all the best , Honey :D

2009-11-11T22:37:00.003+07:00

♥

PREPPY GOES TO MALL

TRUTH OR LIE ?

2009-11-11T20:59:00.012+07:00

One day , two little girls called * DUO STRESS * is having some TRUTH OR LIE question each other , and there's a result . .

TRUTH OR LIE ?
answered it !

♥ atel masih sayang sama buntut (yes)
♥atel masih kesel sama sikil (yes)
♥czle gak sayang marmutang (no)
♥czle gak pengen balikan (maybe)
♥czle cemburu kalo ngeliat marmutang ama cewe laen (yes)
♥atel pengen balikan sama buntut (yes)
♥atel sayang sirip (no)
♥atel pengen sirip melebihi buntut (no)
♥atel mau SANTET sikil (ABSOLUTELY YES)
♥atel pengen buat sikil sakit hati (YES , OF COURSE)
♥atel pengen injekinjek sikil (GOD , WHY NOT ?)
♥czle uda demen sama yg laen (no)
♥czle kangen sama marmutang (maybe)
♥czle paling sayang sama marmutang (maybe)
♥atel butuh DUKUN (yes)
♥atel mao balikan sekarang juga sama buntut (yes)
♥atel nyesel buang nelayan (yes)

♥atel mao nelayan (yes)
♥czle pengen pake SUSUK (no)
♥czle pengen sama marmutang saat ini juga (maybe)
♥czle pengen saatsaat jadian sama marmutang (maybe)
♥atel mao kasih SOP BUNTUT lagi (no ! expensive !)
♥atel mao mengulang kejadian bersahajanya lagi (yes , but if he's change !)
♥atel bodoh (yes)

by : czle and atel
@ XII IPS 3 on Mr. L class

2009-11-11T00:04:00.003+07:00

im lookin for this

- rock balerina

♥

kamu lagi lagi

2009-11-10T23:26:00.004+07:00

mungkin km ngerasa ak yg salah
mungkin km ngerasa ak yg bego
mungkin km ngerasa ak yg bikin semuanya keg gini

ak gaktau niat kamu ap
ak gaktau maksud kamu ap
ak jga gaktau inti semuanya apa

tp km inget ga ?

masamasa waktu kamu bilang semuanya itu
masamasa waktu kamu ngasitau semuanya dengan katakata manis
masamasa waktu kamu memulai semuanya

jangan bohongin lagi
jangan godai lagi

dia sahabat aku

berhenti melakukan semua itu
aku gakmau dia sama seperti aku

LOOKLET ♥

2009-11-09T17:36:00.004+07:00

I LOVE IT , OVER BLUES ♥

- OVER BLUES

STILL BELLA'S BIRTHDAY ♥

2009-11-09T16:14:00.006+07:00

BELLA's 18TH BIRTHDAY SURPRISE ♥

Pulang sekolah barusan , kita (Maionaisse) abis kasi kue ke Bella , kasi cake dr DAPUR COKLAT , yang Choco Banana , hmss yummy :p

So , here's the story . .

Pagi - pagi kue gue titipin di ruang guru , tanpa sepengetahuans si bodoh itu tentunyaa hahaha.

Pulang sekolahnya ,
Atel m Iccil soksok ngajak dia mutermuter gedung skolah yang gakjelas gt sbenernya juga , dan ud pasti ketauans kalo kita mao memberikan sesuatu k Bella haha .

Sementara itu , gue m anak Maio yang laen nyiapin kue Choco Banana nya di kelas dia d 12 IPS 4 , dengan aroma kue coklat pisang yang bikin gue mupeng , aaaaaaaaa !

Setelah dibawa mutermuter , dengan dompet dan hape yang diumpetin anakanak , dicipratin aer sama Yanto , dan akhirnyaaaaa . . . .

Taaa Daaaaaaa . . .

Happy Birthday BELLAAAAA
Happy Birthday BELLAAAAA

Selamat Panjang Umur dan Bahagiaaaaaa
Selamat Panjang Umur dan Bahagiaaaaaa
Selamat Panjang Umur dan Bahagiaaaaaa
Selamat Panjang Umur dan Bahagiaaaaaa
Selamat Panjang Umur dan Bahagiaaaaaa
Selamat Panjang Umur dan Bahagiaaaaaa

Dengan muka bego- nya , dengan senyum bodoh- nya , dia make a wish , tiups lilin dan akhirnyaa bagibagi kue Choco Banana , nyaamsss :)

Once again ,

Happy Birthday My Lovely Naughty Slut ,
Bella Gabriella ♥
Love you , Smooccchhh *

DELAPANS NOVEMBER 2009

2009-11-08T23:05:00.007+07:00

HAPPY SWEET 18th MY BELOVED SLUT , *Bella Gabriella* ♥

DOTES you :

♥ always love God , family , BCL , Maio , CABO :)
♥ FORGET ALL ABOUT DIMAS PRATAMA
♥ ALWAYS BE MY SLUT , PERFECT NAUGHTY SLUT :D
♥ and another that you want , babes :D

DETEST YOU :

x REMEMBER ABOUT DIMAS PRATAMA
x go to THAT place again , yaa bolehlah skaliskali haha :)

♥ ALL MY LOVE FOR YOU , MY *PEKATS* ♥

HOW MUCH I NEED YOU ? ♥

2009-11-04T22:35:00.011+07:00

Gilaakk , kepikiran diaa (lagi) , dan buat gue gag bisa lupain dia (lagi)
dan tangan gue langsung gatel mao menuliskan semuanya , tangan kanan mulai bergerak menuju laci meja mngambil file hijau yg ud siap untuk dinodai , sambil menahan tangis , otak gue muterr , arghh damn it !
dan hasilnyaa . .

taaa daaaaa !

i cant stop writing this lyric . .

♥

There's no other think would make a history
my eyes were blind on your fantasy
that smile i've been lookin for just melt
got me notice,

How much i love you ?
How much i miss you ?
How much i need you ?
Am i strong enough ?

Boy, you walked with me
warm, hug, and go kissing me
i wouldn't let it go
cause you see,

How much i love you ?
How much i miss you ?
How much i need you ?
Am i brave enough ?

Face to face you smile at me
Hand to hand you touching me
and that's the answer for all my question
cause you see,

How much i love you ?
How much i miss you ?
How much i need you ?
Am i strong enough ?
How much i love you ?
How much i miss you ?
How much i need you ?

and just say it loud . .

Loud . .

♥ made by ME @ XIISOCIAL3- 3119 :)

CAN YOU FEEL IT ?

2009-11-04T15:01:00.009+07:00

Hush Hush

Oooooh ooooh
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strenght
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything that you can do.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me because,

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying ooh ooh
No more pain
No more hurt
No more tryin' Oh Oh Yeah
Because

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

Yeah Oh
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby

♥

HOT HOT HOT DAY :C

2009-11-04T14:31:00.001+07:00

Arghh gilaak , panaas mampus yaa dunia ? Berasa idup di depan kompor huhu
Pulang skolah , nyalain komputer , blogging , twittering , sambil makan dan menikmati aroma panasnyaa matahari ! gilaak sumpah panas mampuusssss !
Malah mau pergi ke Artha Gading tp gag ad yg nganterin , aduhh someone pls pick me up !
Pengen bawa AC kmanamanaa hayaahhhhhhh , Matahari ngumpet donggg !

FIRST DAY ♥

2009-11-03T23:17:00.000+07:00

Okay , its my first time blogging , and i simply dont know how to do this haha

Can someone teaching me ? :D